Out of rehab

Pat came out of rehab last Thursday.  We told him he had to find a place to live like an Oxford house.
We let him stay for a few days but his place at Oxford fell through.
I have to get him out of the house!
I took off work yesterday to drive h im around, outpatient, court, etc.
Then last night I had a migrane that was on my worst time list.  So, I told him to drive himself to AA.  He came home, went out, came home went out.  He said he went to AA and there was not many miles put on but...
Then, at 11 last night, he had a friend come by and take him to Winco.  When I told him that was not acceptable he got mad at me.
I heard him cough, just like when he smokes pot, I went downstairs and Leah was there, he said she was smoking pot.  I told him he was too.  He argued.
He has to go!
His dad will deal with it when he gets home tomorrow. 
I never should have helped him.  My calm has disappeared and I am frantic again.  can hardly make sense here!
I suppose pray for him.  My head hurts and I just am giving up

Pat in Rehab

I am so sorry that I have not updated for so long.
Pat went into Rehab 4 weeks ago.  He is out this Thursday.  He has committed to following a sober lifestyle using the AA 12 step program. He plans to live in an Oxford House.  He has an interview on Sunday to see if he will be accepted. 
His dad and I went down last week for the family program.  It was about what I expected but really opened Mikes eyes!  He and his dad, I think, decided to accept themselves and each other as flawed human beings with forgiveness for the past.
I will continue to be cautiously optimistic for now. 
Lots of things went on there.  Some I still haven't wrapped my head around but most of it was as expected.  Thanks to my online support group, I was prepared and strong and ready! 

I will talk about what happened another time.  Sorry, with Mom and Pat and life, I just have not been able to keep everyone informed.  I am here though and prepared to spend some time telling everyone the goings on of the past month. 

At odds with

I am at odds with the world today
Or maybe myself.
I just think I had better go to bed.  Its not going to get any better.  Tired and down today.  To much of everything. and not enough of what I need. 
I wish someone would pray for Pat.  I don't know that I can.  To involved with myself today and my own bad choices.
So many and i can't go back in time.  bad choices have me down.  Just erase it all.  i want to go away

This last weekend.

Wow, I am truly blessed!
The final to my great weekend was Sunday.  Pat came over.  He was nice!
That is the end to the weekend, just in case you are the "turn to the back of the book to find out who did it" type of person.

I am back to being strong

Sorry about the other day.  I was tired.
I am back and praying hard this weekend!  Pat now has to man up and go into treatment.  I am back to being a strong mother that will not enable but that will pray for my son.
The next 3 days, I will pray that The Lord will lead him to treatment, that he will prepare HIS WAY in Pats mind, body and most deeply into his soul.

I will ask you to pray this weekend for the same things.
Thank you

March 16th evening

my phone is off.  Everything in Pats life is my fault according to him.

Wed March 16

Tomorrow is Pats birthday.  I think of the little boy that I loved.  I still love him so much but I can't stand to be near him now.  I want my boy back!!

Today, we need to focus on him making good choices for the next 72 hours.  Not to do drugs or drink.  Not to think that just because he is 21 tomorrow he needs to go to bars and get in trouble.

Good choices.

Father, Lord, Our great comfortor, Please Lord, stay with Pat. Hold him close to you and do not let him come near temptations that will destroy him.  Help him to understand that he needs help. 
Help his dad and I to stay strong when all we want is to hold him and have him know that we love him.
I pray this in the name of Your Son, who you had to send into danger, knowing he would be hurt and killed, knowing that the temptations were here that could destroy him.  I pray in the name of Christ, Amen

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Its Friday

Pat is staying away.  I am just as happy with that.  I am learning to stop Enabling.  Sometimes called a cold-hearted suchandsuch.
Pats Dad thinks I should call him and make him come over to take care of his animals.  I say why?
I deserve more then to fight all the time.
I deserve more then to have my heart wrenched out each and every day just to be disappointed in the end.

So, bunnies are going to a new home this weekend.  The rodents in the cages hopefully can just stay where they are at.  I can feed them and water them.

I am even planning to leave work an hour early.  Pats Dad is going to bring the dogs here to work and we can run them out here for 20 minutes and we all have fun and get some exercise.
Then we are going to go home and make homemade pizza and have a lovely evening!  I couldn't do that if Pat was there or I had to worry about getting him there to care for the rabbits or rodents!
My online support group calls it all "Drug Drama"  What a fitting description!  Its like watching a TV show that is so bad you do nothing but make snide remarks about it.  But you watch the stupid thing! (CSI Miami is an example)  So, drug drama is off my list for the weekend as well as CSI Miami!

My weekend will be sleeping in, coffee in bed, crafting and enjoying life! 

Why is all this important?  I have stopped enabling!  That means Pat should be hitting up against it soon.  He should be having a really rough time of it.  I am praying for that!  I am praying that he comes to a point that he has to make a decision!  I pray that he makes good decisions. 

A bit different talk then a month ago from me.  I love this blog!  It forces me to see what yesterday was!  And i can make a difference!  "Our future is made out of our present."  So, my present is going to be non enabling!  My present is also going to be more faithful.  More faithful to God, spending time with him.  More faithful to my duties as a daughter and sister.  And more faithful to myself.  Doing more to care for myself. 

What Pat wants March 9

Yesterday he told me that he wants to stay out of treatment until after his 21st birthday next week. I say Why??

It's time

Ecclesiastes 3:1-10 (English Standard Version)

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

 ¹For everything there is a season, and^(A) a time for every matter under heaven:
 ²a time to be born, and a time to^(B) die;a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;

 ³a time to kill, and a time to heal;a time to break down, and a time to build up;

⁴a time to^(C) weep, and a time to laugh;a time to mourn, and a time to^(D) dance;

⁵a time to^(E) cast away stones, and a time to^(F) gather stones together;a time to embrace, and a time to^(G) refrain from embracing;

⁶a time to seek, and a time to^(H) lose;a time to keep, and a time to^(I) cast away;

 ⁷a time to^(J) tear, and a time to sew;a time to^(K) keep silence, and a time to speak;

⁸a time to love, and a time to^(L) hate;a time for war, and a time for peace.

Wed afternoon

Nothing to report.  Pat has to make his own arrangements for Rehab.  He hasn't done anything.
He sold his truck yesterday. He was supposed to pay a girlfriend back some of that. Doubt that he has.

I am not going to think or worry about it today.  I plan on a nice evening tonight.  Sit on my tush and read a book, or something equally mindless. 

Monday, Feb 28

Well, its the end of Feb.
Pat had to have a TB test to get into a rehab in Washington. 
He went to the Doctor, got that done, had it read on Thursday and that is the last he did for himself. 

Wed morning Feb 23

I so want calm.
Pat is not calm.  He does not create calm.  He is exhausting.  Everytime I think it will be ok, its not.

I believe he is using again.  He is stealing again.  I just want my little boy back!  I failed him and his brother.  The Lord has not failed.  I failed, I was given one task by him.  "Raise your children in the way they should go.."  I didn't.
I am here alone.  Nobody else remebers like I do what my boy was.  That child is gone.  I don't think I can live without him  I am mourning today. 

Good choices Pat, make good choices.  Please Lord!  Hold onto him!  Bring my child back to grow into a nice young man!  He is as good as dead.  I am being told that so many times!  Oh Lord.  My heart is broken.  Please please please Lord!  Hold onto him now. 

exact prayer

Being hurt or even broken-hearted, falsely accused or assumed about, talked about or given up on...it doesn't change the fact that Jesus calls us to extend grace and second chances over and over again. I REFUSE TO GIVE UP ON PEOPLE because Jesus hasn't given up on me.

I was ready to give up but a friend shared this with me.

I often think i am here alone.  Thank you for reminding me. 

7 reasons not to worry

The Cure for Anxiety

 ²⁵"For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?

 ²⁶⁾Look at the birds of the air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they?
 ²⁷"And who of you by being ⁾worried can add a single hour to his life?
 ²⁸"And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin,
 ²⁹yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these.
 ³⁰"But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you?You of little faith!
 ³¹"Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing?'
 ³²"For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
 ³³"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
 ³⁴"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.



SEVEN REASONS NOT TO WORRY
Matthew 6:25-34

1. The same God who created life in us can be trusted with the details. (vs.25)
2. Worrying about the future impedes our efforts for today.
(vs.26)
3. Worrying is more harmful than helpful. (vs.27)
4. God does not ignore those who depend on Him. (vss.28-30)
5. Worrying shows a lack of faith in and understanding of God.
(vss.31-32)
6. Worrying keeps us from real challenges God wants us to tackle. (vs.33)
7. Living one day at a time keeps us from being consumed with worry. (vs 34)

Wed nite Feb 16

hello all,
not much to report.  Pat is out on the streets.  I let him take a shower here tonight.  Told him that he couldn't be here after 6 and that he had to be nice to me.  He was very nice.

He wants back in

He has been calling me.
He wants back in to Detox.  I don't know what to do.

Monday Feb 14th

Pat got kicked out of Detox last night.  For having pot in his room.

Wed nite

I have my computer back.  Yeah, I have missed it.

I have been reading a lot about enabling behavior.  I have enabled Pat. 
Of course, I am disgusted, mad, pissed off.
But not just at Pat and not just at the actions that have I have performed to allow Pat to get to this point.

Tuesday

Hello, I am sorry, I was tired and cranky and just down yesterday.
But, today is a new day!
And its Son2 Birthday.  He came over last night, late of course, and I was the first one to wish him Happy Birthday!  Isn't amazing how just that little gift was what has cheered me all day today!

I am trying to decide if we should do an intervention for Pat next week.  Thought maybe we could get his Brothers and Sister, maybe girlfriend to all sit with him and tell him to go to a facitlity for the next 2 or 3 months. 

I am going to my mothers for 3 or 4 days.  I will be off line most of that time.
But, I have today and tomorrow to ask for prayers about this. 
So
Exact Prayer Request:
1. Thank you Lord for the days I don't have problems!  They are a gift from you.
2. Prepare us to talk with Pat about going on for more treatment.
3. Prepare Pat to hear what we say and to listen with an open heart.
4. I Thank him for you, those praying with me to save my son!  Knowing you are here helps me go on even with the fear that I sometimes have. 

Monday afternoon

I am frightned today.  I don't know why. 
I feel like I am waiting for the next shoe to drop.

Please pray for Pat today.  I don't even have the words.

Monday

Pat seems to have had a tough weekend.
Me, I am heart tired but enjoyed myself this weekend in spite of, or maybe because of all.

Any way,
This morning, its time to focus on preparing him to go to a 30 to 90 day residence program.  He doesn't want to, he has all kinds of reasons for not going but, that's where he needs to be.

Exact Prayer Request:
1. Thanks to God that Pat is still alive and healthy.
2. Work in Pat today to lead him in the right direction, to help Pat understand that he needs more help and make him willing to seek out the best help he can.

Thanks friends.  I know there is not a lot of us praying but with God, all things are possible.

Friday 10 am

Good morning friend,
Nothing happening on my end.  Pat is smack in the middle of his first 2 weeks.  The counselor will be working with him to accept the fact that he needs to go on to a residential facility for more treatment.
So
Exact prayer request:
1. That the Lord will continue to work in Pat to get the best treatment possible.
2. Praise of Thanks for you kind reader.

See you next week.

Thursday morning

Is it Friday yet?
Why should that make a difference?  It won't except, well,  I want something more fun to do.
Friday, I will get out of work, play with the dogs and maybe have a big huge drink! of something really strong!!

3:30 Wed

He needs prayer today.
He is feeling lied to.
He feels he should be trusted and allowed to make up his own mind.
Exact Prayer Requests again
1. That Our Father will hold him tight and lead him to where He wants him to be.

thats it today.

See you all tomorrow

More Bible Verses, I need them today

If you have a verse you feel would be important for our prayer journey, please feel free to referance it in comments
These are from the New American Standard Bible
Luke 18
 ¹Now He was telling them a parable to show that at all times they ought to pray and not to lose heart,
 ²saying, "In a certain city there was a judge who did not fear God and did not respect man.
 ³"There was a widow in that city, and she kept coming to him, saying, 'Give me legal protection from my opponent.'
 ⁴"For a while he was unwilling; but afterward he said to himself, 'Even though I do not fear God nor respect man,
 ⁵yet because this widow bothers me, I will give her legal protection, otherwise by continually coming she will wear me out.'"
 ⁶And the Lord said, "Hear what the unrighteous judge said;
 ⁷now, will not God bring about justice for His elect who cry to Him day and night, and will He delay long over them?
 ⁸"I tell you that He will bring about justice for them quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will He find faith on the earth?"

I don't have myself together yet but...

Ok,
Now I will just go on. 
Exact prayer requests.
1. Pat will be coming to his 10 days off now.  It will be a very hard time.  It is expected this is the time that he will begin to get angry (wow, this is scary to me) or angrier, he will begin to understand what has happened to him, he will either walk or stay.  He really needs prayer right now that God will hold him tight.
I will request that we pray exactly "Father, Hold Patrick with all your might, not allowing him to make any decision that will be harmful to himself.  Hold him tight and direct his body and mind to heal as only You can  do."

We are directed to pray with direction and repeatedly.  I will find the story and update here.  I think we, I think I need it now.
2. I believe that in all things we are directed to give Thanks.  I am having a bit of trouble today with this so maybe you have thoughts.  Right now, I give Thanks that last night, I went to Zumba and worked hard at it so last night I could not sit around the house and worry.

Wed Feb 2nd

Good Morning Family and Friends.
I saw Pat last night for a minute. He shaved his hair off. 
He is worried today because so many people know about this.  As I said, he told me he was embarressed that he was an addict and in detox. 
I told him
"Did you ever think that maybe people you know knew that something was wrong with you before now?
Don't you know that most everyone you know knew that you had a major problem?
I was the only one with blinders on!  And, we live in a small community.  People talk.  Everyone links to someone just 2 or 3 people away."

He is not there yet.

I was quoted a statistic last night that I want to share with you.  This is a warning though, it is the scariest thing I could ever had been told!  Don't read further unless you want to be scared.  Seriously.  This is not me telling you a joke.

Early Tuesday morning

Yesterday, Pat went to the hospital.  They gave him a few liters of fluid and sent him back.  His dad went to sit with him and it sounds like they talked amicably for about 2 hours.  Mike left to pick me up, then the phone calls started....

3pm Monday

Mike has been there with Pat for the last 90 minutes.  He said he will be late picking me up as he wants to stick around for a while.
Pat talked to me for a few minutes.  He had not been feeling well since Saturday.  He said his blood pressure dropped to 79/64 and his pulse was 135.  That doesn't sound right but I will get more info later.

Pat also told me "I don't want older brother to tell everyone about this.  Its embarrassing that I have been on drugs and it's embarrassing that I have to get treatment"
I of course was kind of astonished and didn't have anything smart ass to say in reply!  You know me and my mouth. 
But, I am trying to take this as a good thing for him to say if a bit unusual.  He did tell me I could tell Oldest Brother and Only Daughter.  So, I think for now, I will not tell him about this blog.  :)

And until I have a chance to talk with a drug dependencies professional, I will only ask you that you to write him encouraging notes reminding him that you are praying for him. Maybe not mention the blog at the moment....

We are thinking he will be fine.  I will not be able to update until tomorrow.  But Our Father knows whats going on so you can feel free to pray how He leads you.

Thank you for the help dear friends....

12:30 Monday afternoon

Pat has had a seizure and is on his way to the hospital from Detox. 
When I received the call I asked what that meant.  Was told that it may be that his blood pressure (which has been high) has just dropped suddenly. 
I don't know any more then that.
Mike is on his way there to find out how bad it is.  Right at the moment, I can't go out of fear.
He will call me when he knows more. And if I have time, I will update you.


Exact Prayer:
1. Lord to be with Pat
2. Lord to be with Doctors and nurses

Update: 1:05.  The counselor just told me that this is common when coming off the drugs.  His blood pressure had been high and it propably just dropped suddenly.  He said that Pat had been weak then his eyes just rolled back in his head and he dropped.  He said it was more of a blood pressure thing then a seizure.  (Wish he had told me that at first but..)
So, thank you friends and only sister that helped me be calm for the past 40 minutes or so.
Pat may go back to Detox tonight maybe in the morning. 
Mike will be getting to the hospital any minute now to check on things.  I will update again when I hear anything. 
My hands are not shaking as bad and I am calmer.

Monday Morning

Oh Pat, the poor poor boy!
Good news is that he went back to Detox Friday after trying to go out and visit friends after Doctors appointment.

He still thinks life should not have to change for him.  He believes he should get what he wants when he wants.  And I should stop what ever I am doing to take care of him..
 Pat wanted us to bring him things. He wanted toiletries and a towel and a picture of girlfriend and a cup and this and that and a list of things that I would have to go here and there to collect.  I just said I would bring what I could as soon as I could.
Mike and I cleaned house on Saturday and by Sunday morning I had a collection of some of his things to take to him.  By 9am Sunday, he was texting me, "are you coming?  did you get this? why not?"

He has no idea that other people are important and may have a life that goes on when he is not in the room.

I just got a call from his counselor and he believes it is to soon for us to come in for anything.  Pat is still going through detox and his body is addressing some issues.  So, that was very interesting to me.  Pat has been telling me that his heart rate is high and blood pressure is high.  The Counselor says that is normal during this time.

Anyway, I know this does not make a lot of sense. 
Points I guess I want you to know, We exercised and cleaned this weekend.  We took some stuff to Pat.  He is lonely and his body is adjusting to life without drugs.  He will be there for at least 10 more days.(we all hope for more) then on to another facility.

If you would like to write to him you can mail it to the house and I will take it down to him.  Be sure and put your name and address on the outside of the envelope.  Otherwise, it would be opened.  If you wish him to write back, through a self addressed stamped envelope in your letter.  I have to get some stamps to him but it will be a few days before I can do that.
Things you might tell him are:
 you are praying for him,
or a memory of him,
or just tell him about your day. 
I write a note every day or so.  I just tell him about each of the animals and that his dad and I love him.  We don't address any issues or anything right now.

Exact prayer requests:
again,
1. Pat needs to learn good choices, he actually needs to learn to here his conscience again.  That part of his brain that knows the difference between right and wrong has been turned off.
2. The people working with him will be led by God to help him.
3.  Prayers of Thanks that Mike and I actually had made the decision to change our life and get healthier 3 full weeks before this all hit!  What a blessing that we were enough into making changes that we did not just give it up and decide there was to much going on to get healthier.  We are exercising and encouraging each other.  We have cut salt down and working on cutting sugar.  (We will deal with the fat thing another time!)
4. Prayers of Thanks for you that are reading this.  You have all been praying and we feel your prayers. We also feel so encouraged when we go out  and have an awesome evening with friends and can come away feeling that we had a great evening!  What an awesome feeling when so much is going on that we can laugh and enjoy life still!  Me, the worrier!  The one that obsesses about problems!  WOW!!  You are great friends.  We give our prayers of thanks for you so often. 

THANK YOU

ps, I think the news may not change so much during the day.  Maybe we are at a place that everyday will be the same.  Wouldn't that be awesome.....

2:30 Friday

He is still making really bad choices.
He had a drs appointment today.
Was supposed to call detox and get a ride back
Instead Darling Girlfriend got a taxi to pick him up so she could see him.

I don't even know what to say.  

He could get kicked out of this program.  
Pray where your heart leads you. 

Will not be online until Monday unless I find a computer to use somewhere

3pm Thursday

Pat is still in Detox.  I got a call from him today saying that they wanted him to see a doctor, approve his health and to prescrip a mild tranquilizer for him.  I had to make an appointment.  Did that, he told me that I would need to take him and I said ok, I made arrangements and then...

Just rambles

I can put all the issues in my life into little boxes or a locker might be a better description.

8AM Thur

Pat went into Detox last night, Wed
He told me he hadn't done anything since Friday.
But, when intake asked him, he said late last night, that would have been Tues.  So, he was out running around Tues night getting drugs just as Son 2 had told me.
This is the first step.  Now he needs to meet with somebody to get a "Substance Abuse Eval".  That is required in order for him to get a space in a program.  Son 2 warns me to not get my hopes up yet.  He said that people go in and out of Detox like a revolving door.
However, I choose to take this as an answer to our prayers.

Personal note, yesterday my shoulder, neck and back hurt so much I actually asked for a shot to get relieve. Family will know how hard that is for me to do.   Then the Dr said that I would need some muscle relaxers.  She wrote a prescription for 90!!  I took one before I left the VA and 2 before bed.  I was desperate.  Slept really well last night and the pain in my shoulder has been relieved.


So, todays exact prayer
1. Thank the Lord Pat went into Detox and at this moment in time I am calmed.
2. Thank the Lord that I have relieve from my pain so I can continue.
3. Guidence and help with Insurance paperwork, finding a spot in a good program for Pat and that Pat will actually go.
4. The Lord will continue to work within Pat leading him to make good choices.

Thank you all for your help.  I know that your prayers are working.  I feel the calm and His peace every day!

1:30 Wed

Pat just texted me.  He wants to do all kinds of things today again rather then go to Detox.  I have a doctors appointment at the VA so I told him I have things to do and won't help him.
He has to make this a priority, I can't do it.

Prayer requests are the same as this morning I guess.  I could so easily get frustrated with this but I don't get my hopes up that he will do what he says he will do.  Maybe add a prayer that I can keep my spirits up the rest of the day.

Psalms 27 and my favorite from Psalms 37

I think I need this here.

A Psalm of Fearless Trust in God.

A Psalm of David.

    ¹The LORD is my light and my salvation;
         Whom shall I fear?
         The LORD is the defense of my life;
         Whom shall I dread?

Wed 8:30 AM

Pat is not in Detox.  They did not have any male beds by the time he said he got there. 
I don't know what is going on.
His girlfriend gave him $25 yesterday.  He and his buddy Joey were together for a time.  Joey is part of the issue we think.
He texted me a lot yesterday late afternoon.  He said he was staying out in the Valley with a friend that was worried about him.  He said he has a bed in Detox this morning but that he wanted to sleep in. 

On a positive note.  The Insurance company provided us with an Individual Claims Manager.  She seems wonderful!!  She found a place in Naches that I would like to look into.  It is a 30 day center then it steps down to a half way house.

Is he on his way?

I don't know.  I don't know anything at this point.
Except that he spent the night at his girlfriends place.  I hope she didn't give him any money!!
She is really mad at me because she believes I told her mother that Pat was there.  Now she says she is locked out of her house.  Umm, maybe there is another issue going on with her. 

A friend of Pats told me he was on his way to pick up Pat and take him to Detox.  That was about 90 minutes ago.  I don't know where he is but now we can't get ahold of his friend either. 
UGH!
I have to leave this in Gods hands too! 
Why don't I have any control of this situation?
 I hate that Lord is always reminding me that it is in his control! 
    I love that Lord is always reminding me that it is in his control!

Prayer for 3 pm Tuesday....that he arrives at Detox!

If no word by 4, besides having all my hair pulled out, I will pray that I hold strong.  Not allow him in the house, not allow him to harress me. 

Zumba tonight.  Maybe prayer should be that I am able to move fast enough to get a really good work out!

Pat is out of jail

Well, Pat was released from jail.  Son 1 made arrangements for him to go to Detox tonight. Son 2 picked him up and on the way Pat got out of the truck and said he would not go.  I told Son 2 to just drive away and leave him.  It is cold and wet outside.  Sounds like he needs prayer tonight again, still.

Oh, this will be so much fun....

Well, I have it set up.  I welcome all comments here. 
Some answers before they are asked.
1.  My Pat loves animals!  Thus, the puppy of the day and the fish added as gadgets.  Enjoy them as much as Pat would.
2.  As you all know, I am a selfish horrible person that doesn't enjoy sharing so, comment all you want here and when you see me on Facebook, let's not mention it.  Horrible I know but, who wants to see their therapists out on the street?
3.  Please excuse my spelling.  Right now, I am using a friends little tiny net book because mine is in the pawn shop along with everything else. Older Brother wants to help me get it out but I don't know what the police will and won't allow.  That is all an excuse however, I am just a really horrible speller!  Feel free to point out what you feel the need to point out,  I may or may not pay attention. ( see #2)
4.If you don't know me and feel the need to tell me what a horrible person I am, see #2 above.
5. I think of Pat as the young boy I missed in my life before he was even born, not what he has become,  I may need to be reminded of that some times.  Comment away!

Love you for taking the time out of your day to join me in prayer to save the life of that boy I have loved for so long.....

History

I was a stay at home mother, except for that little duty called Reserves.
I was activated in 2001 and only went 500 miles away.
However, my husband was a RN with a traveling clinic (Do you read traveling circus?)
We had set up arrangements for Son 2 and Son 3 to go to friends if I ever got activated.  Lucky us!
I went, the boys were dramatized and life turned to C&^9 after that.

Info I sent out today

Hello friends and family,

The last several days has been.....

well, I can't even find the right words to explain that feeling.

As many of you know and some of you don't, Thursday we kind of hit the wall.  The newest and last of our "things" went missing with absoulutly no reason.  The new chainsaw and my computer just vanished.

By Friday, Mike was calm enough to file a police report naming Son 3, Pat  as the thief. ( I am very proud of him btw, he did things no father should have to do and did them well)

Within an hour he had a call back saying this that and many other things had been pawned.